RACHEL

It is so rare in this world to meet a trustworthy person who truly wants to help you, and finding such a person can make you feel warm and safe, even if you are in the middle of a windy valley high up in the mountains.

— Lemony Snicket, Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can’t Avoid 

Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.

—- Lemony Snicket, Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can’t Avoid

Song: Death Letter - The Skeleton Key (Film OST)

I am a King.

Descendant of God I was born into royalty

Deemed ruler of my fate

Reincarnation birthed me with gaped teeth.

Chipped from biting the nails out of my coffin they buried me in 6 ft farther away from heaven

But I am no ones victim.

I will not wear the scars you have sown for me nor sing the sorrow you have composed for me

I am A KING.

I dare you to tell me other wise

Once upon a time I was daddy’s little princess until thieves parted my thighs and broke my crown

I no longer felt worthy to sit on my thrown in stained gown I had forgotten that I was royalty

Couldn’t remember how to scratch hieroglyphics into papyrus so I etched my name into train carts

Tried to mimic the moves of a queen but slid in and out of circumstances all too frequently fixed to the board

Sacrificed my pawns to even scores I had forgotten that I was royalty

Never really been one to sit back and observe but I had to learn

I stand protected, guarded.

Always on the defense cause I’m constantly under attack I HAVE to stay strong

Have to take the role of a King so I can learn how to treat a queen

Learn how to love myself freely

Always on the defense

Never let anyone infiltrate my castle they ARE NOT worthy

The game used to be black against white and white always goes first

But the struggle is no longer color blind

The board has been painted red and blue, black and blue, purple

But it always fades to black

And the darkness got me fearing my own skin but I am no one’s victim

I am a king.

My walk is what I make it, What I choose, one step at a time.

Time is steady tickin’ in the back of my mind

Ain’t NOBODY got me on check.

I’m on a mission and I’m smarter than that

I am a king, I am a king,

I am aching to teach my little sister how not to end up shook by bishops and rooks whose whistles will box her in

Force her back against the corner

Cause I once knew the feeling of being helpless

A damsel in distress so I will raise no princesses

Because fragile slippers will eventually have you walking on broken glass and I am no one’s victim

I will not wear the scars you have sown for me nor sing the sorrow you have composed for me

I am a king.

I am a king.

Have to be the ruler of my fate in order to save my life

I am a king.

and I dare you to tell me otherwise.